What am I learning?

What am I learning on this new journey in Christ? [B90 challenge and more]

Well that is a good question. Lol! I have been in a growing season for nearly 4 years now. [course everyday we should be growing in someway in Christ] I walked through 3 years of faith growing, OUCH! That was extremely painful and very hard. Even as I have gone through and continue to go through, none the less I am still growing. What a journey and amazing ride it has been.

A few things are pointed out [to me] that I feel like God wants more growing in:

Faith - We will never stop growing in our Faith. There are more levels of faith then I ever imgained.

Trust - There is always going to be some level of growth in TRUST. It seems like each time gets harder and harder because the Storm seems so much bigger. But none the less, I may be battered and scarred, I will continue to press on and claim my victory because Christ has already won it for me!

Being Submissive to the Father and His call - Submissive is a must! If we are not willing to be submissive to the Laws of God then we will never be out of the storms. The door will always remain open for an uninvited enemey to proul in our life and around us. WE are really setting ourself up for trouble in other words. We will always rely on our self surrendering NOTHING to our Heavenly Father. This is and will be a dangerous thing for us. If we ignore His calls and ignore his laws. Lord forgive and help us for ignoring you!

Learning to lean on Him while walking out into the unknown - I remember playing games like- Marco Polo, Pin the the tail on donkey [other games that have your eyes blind folded.] Could you imagine having to do this daily with your life? How can we relate these games to our daily walk?

Unfortunately, so many do have to live like this daily and if we think about it - it's very difficult to live our life with out knowing what tomorrow holds. When we apply these lessons that we have learned [be it life related or game related] to our everyday walk in Christ we have to learn to let go of everything even the fear of not knowing what tomorrow holds and place our hope and trust in Christ.

Some across this country even this world are facing uncertainties for tomorrow. How can we surrender everything without trying to ensure tomorrow is secure? Well truthfully- WE can't secure our tomorrows, But God can! When we learn to lean on Him in our trials and surrender everything in to His hands, Tomorrow no longer becomes a worry. We soon realize that even if tomorrow doesn't ever come we have all we need in Christ Jesus.

Matthew 6: 25-34 do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?

You see sometimes we get so wrapped up in the Here and Now or what we are going through, that we don't even take a moment to get lost in God and see what He has to say or what He wants us to do? It could be our finances, family- marital- friend relations, Health situations, Job situations.... It really can be anything.

1 Peter 5: 1-11 [6-7] Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on Him because HE cares for you.

When we read all of [1 Peter 5:1-11] you will see more of a submissive request from the Lord. Man is this not hitting home for me! I needed to learn to be more submissive and surrender everything in to His hands trusting that He will provide all of my and our needs! I never said I didn't already do this, but I think now I see more of where I lacked alittle in surrendering ALL of it. [Maybe I surrendered it but I picked half of it back up and walked on]

Right now I know that for myself particularly, I have been in the midst of several storms but I have recently decided to NOT LOOK at the the storms surrounding me. I surrender and surrender and surrender everything over in to Gods Hands! I don't want to look at the stuff any more- really why should I? Gloomy weather has a tendancey to get anyone down. I hate being down in the dumps.

Let me be truthful for a moment - I never thought things could be as difficult as I have seen or even worse while walking in to an unfamiliar surrounding with Christ. Course maybe that was me being nieve, we all have our moments! :) But then again, Who really wants to look at how any situation can be much worse? That can be extremely depressing and overwhelming, right? If we really think about it, How many of us really do look at the depressing and overwhelming part? Chances are at some part of our life all of us have or may still do this. This is why it is extremely important to search our self and surrender our life, everyone and everything in it - to our Heavenly Fathers hands. He knows what tomorrow holds, what is best for our life, what we need and don't need, How hard it may hurt and so forth. He already knows all of the missing pieces to each and every puzzle!

If we would just trust Him we would get to see the real picture, the big picture and receive all that He has in store for us...

Auh! The learning is never ending! Lol! I am completely amazed by Gods unfailing Love. He is always there for each of us even if we never ask for Him to be. He is quick to be loving and forgiving- quick in His correcting in our wrongs, always leading us in the right direction. I am so amazed by Him. More so forever greatful to have a father who always loves me unconditionaly and never leaves me when I hurt.

You have heard me ask for prayer for my father. He struggles right now with his Kidneys failing. Soon he will need to be placed on dialysis eliminating any chance for a transplant after he begins dialysis. For a while I struggled with the fact that I may lose my father in this life. I struggled with could I be a donor and if so, should I... I have 4 young children what do I do if one of my kids need a kidney and my husband is not compatible? What if my kidney went in to failure and I only had one what then? So many what ifs? What do I do? Am I, Should I? Well??? No our blood types are not the same - but I had heard that may not be a problem!?!?

Is this me being selfish to want to help my father and or not be able to help him at all?

You have also heard me speak about the difficulties I had with the loss of my brother around christmas 12 years ago. I dreaded going through another painful death should I and [we] be faced with my fathers. Over the course of the last year and half God has been breaking and remolding, weeding and planting, nourishing and growing me in many areas. So much that now I can rely more on him, draw strength from him and learn to WAIT on him more patiently. [Atleast more then I could before. o_O ]

I have learned alot over the course of the last year and half, well really even beyond that. I am now - no longer willing to allow certain distractions -[ from the enemy, from trials, from individuals]- to rob me from what my Heavenly Father has in store for me and my family. I will glorify my Heavenly Father through it all.

So if you are struggling right now, I want to encourage you. God is STILL on HIS throne! He will never leave you or forsake you. When ever you need Him, just call on His name. Never Never Never, let anything or anyone distract you from Gods Truth! Stretch your hands towards heaven, lift your voice unto Him and ask for His help and I assure you he will deliver you from the enemy.

As I grow and go on through this journey I will post at times what the Lords speaks to me and leads me through. Until then Keep our eyes fixed on God, Keep our ears open for His calls, Keep our hearts ready and clean for the fathers return.

God bless you all!